Malice and Me

TV Live and Shoot.

Fri, 08 May 2009 02:26:25 GMT

April 29 2009

It was the show's first anniversary and I have to show up to celebrate it.
I met the new male host who took over after the former male host left the show.
Well, I found him pretty good with the guitar.
He had to borrow my guitar though.
He was also accommodating, very friendly and simple.

We sat the whole afternoon practicing for a song to present for the next day's LIVE SHOOT for the Morning Show. It would be his first LIVE shoot I guess.
I had several LIVEs already, because we used to host a monthly event to support the show, invite other and bigger celebrities and the like to promote us.
Anyway, he kept joking about Safety shots and takes.
He was nice, knowing a lot of old songs and updated with the new ones.
It was nice.

I didn't tell him what songs I like, even though he asked.
He probably wouldn't know MYV / Placebo / Dresden Dolls and the like.
I just told him, oh you probably wouldn't have heard of them.

We decided singing a duet in one of Jason Mraz's songs.
He sang Mraz's songs so naturally I was impressed.
Me however, had to raise my melody higher to match the guitar.
His strumming and plucking were also amazing.
Loved his playing.

Then, I was asked to host a segment about him since the planned host had other engagements so I have to take the job on-the-spot. I had fun interviewing his friend.
But I didn't have enough practice, so what I used to do in one take, like the intro, took me several takes to make sense out of it. Depressing.
However, the interview went out smoothly.
I enjoyed talking to someone on-cam again.
I guess my favorite part when hosting is to host an interview.
My mind keeps rolling and doesn't have to strictly stick to the script.

Anyway, the next day, we had a small reunion for the morning show.
The make-up artist was unavailable so I had to do make-up myself.
We practiced a little more and then proceeded with pre-production.

Our performance was okay. I guess not perfect, but quite alright for all of Northern Mindanao to see. We had fun, saying hello's and how are you's.
TV didn't change much.
But I did, and I had roughened up a bit, but still I did what I had to do.
Oh well. I guess, I somewhat liked the experience.

SEX PISTOLS

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 07:42:05 GMT

I had my hands on a copy of 'THE FILTH & THE FURY: The Sex Pistols Documentary' and had a closer perspective of this pioneering punk band.

At the beginning I was already acquainted with the reputation and visual image of this band's bassist: the infamous Sid Vicious.
But I never really had a more dissected preview of the band.
Hell, I only heard one of their songs and I rated them so easily to be acceptable in today's standards.

GOOD THING I watched that documentary. Now, I even loved them more.

JOHNNY ROTTEN is incredible. Loved his image, his slightly out of tune yet humorously syllabicated "rrrrrrr's" and other verbals sounds, sometimes lyrics eaten off, lazily dragging the lyrics into some incomprehensible mad whirl of noise. PERFECT.
He may stab me or shoot me saying this but I adored it.

SID VICIOUS lived up to what I thought he was before watching the documentary. And I still loved the way he was. Perhaps, the heroine addiction was not much to admire about, but all the rest, even the ugly bass playing, I found quite lovable.

STEVE and PAUL, I thought never existed. BUT the running reputation of Steve being a kleptomaniac and the sex of the band, was quite the image I expected from them and it made the band even become more vivid to me.

As a gift, my boyfriend, gave me a copy of their album and some live songs...which I addictively listen to everyday. I also received, a copy of ALL U2 albums (because HE loves them) and Miyavi's ROOM NO. 382 (which was like a Lady Gaga influenced remix of some of his hit songs) and his newest single AZN PRIDE which I thought redundant of his last album, Samurai Sessions, which I also have. (I'm just bragging aren't I? haha.)

Suddenly, watching that YELLOW SUBMARINE movie of the Beatles, made the FAB FOUR a bit out of league from them I'd say. But that's just because I was overwhelmed by the polluted yet strikingly vindicative image and sound of the SEX PISTOLS.

Days after watching, I realized each of them was just two sides of teh coin and I can never be satisfied with just being purely into one thing.
Therefore, I can love the SEX PISTOLS as much as I LIKE the BEATLES. haha.

Met Roadkill

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 06:47:40 GMT

ROADKILL : KITTEN
I wish I had a photo to show it.
My sister and I decided to go out and reconnect with civilization.

We were using the usual transportation in our small, slightly introverted and quite rural subdivision when we passed by this extraodinarily weird image of a piece of furry material flattened on the road.

At first we thought it was just a piece of clothing torn off fom somewhere and run over by some random passing jeepneys and other vehicles.

A little closer to it, we realized it was a small flattened kitten, its guts out but unusually intact looking and its brain was cleanly behind its head it looked like a flattened piece of stuffed toy on the road. Its left eye was open, still glassy and had the remnants of help unanswered in its glow. The brownish blood marks indicate it was there for quite a time and no one dared to even give it a decent burial. Its left forearm was placed in a humanly gesture of reaching out and its other limbs left in a frozen suspension of active crawling for something not there.

It was pitiful but similarly beautiful and artsy.
Haha.

We meet several roadkills from cats, dogs and some other not-worth mentioning species like human cadavers. haha. I'm just joking.
It's a small place really, so a full grown cat or dog roadkill is quite something here already.

Well. For now that's it.
My ADHD infested boyfriend went out of town with his family.
I was invited to join them but was not allowed from going out of town.
Parents' RANT.
Besides, I've been to where they're going anyway. So it'll probably be about me and him together with his family in the trip really.

And we can do that anytime in the city as soon as he returns. Haha.

Out the Trashbin.

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 09:04:59 GMT

It's going to take some time to overwrite all the trash I had put in here.
It took me a year to visit again, because, I was tired of the net.

I was busy with a lot of things.
SCHOOL.
WORK.
SELF.
and the obligation to satisfy the ADHD of my boyfriend.

Now that I've graduated from school and from the suffocating noose that held my neck in work.

Which was choking me the moment I BRIEFLY worked in ABS-CBN Broadcasting Network as a TV Host from April 2008 - October 2009. I was made to dress up and host a show with two other talented hosts who within six months also got out and replaced by another batch with names and titles.

I had a good share of adventure, fun and anger from being in show business.
The eventful six months as a TV personality earned me an image of both good and bad reviews.

I honestly couldn't be myself. I had to be someone else, which was quite exhausting but exacts the whole point of my work.
Wearing BLACK was banned from me because the higher-ups said, I wear it too much. And also leather collars and other "negative" clothing which composed the whole array of goth accessories and punk clothing lines.
My beloved black boots were almost banned but I had to insist because it's the only footwear that makes me look taller and comfortable to me.

My creativity was limited to being "sweet".

I never learned to wear stilts or other formally / casually SWEET clothes.
I only learned to put black in everything SWEET they suggested to me.

BOOTS in every clothing. Who cares for Fashion 101? I would think.
Oh they did. My mother did. The ugly comments in my show's Friendster account did.

But I let it be. I tried to push myself even more to fit the show.
Tried to BEND ALL RULES. And I finally gave up.
Six months was enough.

Now. I'm back being me. Had a fixation with black and boots so I'm wearing them almost everyday.

Some people who knew me from the show would run--SCARED. Haha.
Some who liked me, would say hi and smile.
Sometimes I hear people calling my name or the name of my show.
I just let them be. Sometimes it's annoying.

Oh well. That's done.

I am now in a dilemma.
Graduated from college. Now two options lie ahead of me.
(1) WORK again but in ABS-CBN. (Work invitations are everywhere, really)
(2) Proceed to LAW (which was my original plan)

Either one makes a good result but either can also be a waste of time.
I'm not bothering to explain that anymore.

Really now. I have a headache. So. I'll rant more the next time.

Don't mind me please.

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 01:08:18 GMT

Discover if You are Seme or Uke!
Created by ChiisaiYume on Memegen.net

This is the result if Uke-in-Training! has the highest score.

Take this quiz now - it's easy!

VERY interesting :D

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 04:11:10 GMT

NOT FOR KIDS.

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 06:23:41 GMT

ME!

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 10:44:42 GMT

Now...this is funny.

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 09:27:31 GMT

For Girls : Naruto Love Life by xX Sunshine Aura Xx

Name

Age

Your Favorite Character

Your present mood.

Naruto Thinks

That you're finee.

Sasuke thinks

That you need help.

Kakashi Thinks

That you're strange for hanging out with Gai, and not him.

Neji Thinks

That you rather have Lee than him. XD *not true for me...*

Lee Thinks

Thinks you are un-youthful, and you disrespect Gai too much.

Gai thinks

Thinks you're TOO youthful.

Gaara Thinks

Hates you... for some odd reason...

Kankuro thinks

Whoa, She likes my dolls? ERR, I MEAN PUPPETS.

Kiba and Akamaru think...

Thinks that it's nice to hug you every morning.

Shino thinks

You're crazy for a normal looking girl.. but thats cool.

Shikamaru Thinks

Just a best friend... huh...

Chouji thinks

I would give up every single one of my chips for you.

Asuma Thinks

That he actually died from seeing your face.

Jiraiya Thinks

Ew. Ew. Ew.

Orochimaru thinks...

Be my apprentice?

Kabuto thinks...

Orochimaru forbid me to even look at you...

You're features

Random, cute, smart, great in battle.

Who is your soul mate?

Kankuro, you're both determined and love dolls. (cough) I mean puppets.

Who will you marry and howyou met?

Sasuke, He saved you're lousy butt from Itachi.

How long you will last together?

A fair amount of time.

How many children?

Percent you'll be happy.

55%

Percent He'll be happy.

73%

Percent Your Children'll be happy.

27%

How you die.

You died in battle.

Improved character.

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 09:22:21 GMT

This is better though.

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 09:19:56 GMT

Haha. naruto life,

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 09:18:10 GMT

Eugene's stats

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 08:59:56 GMT

Guh...

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 08:55:04 GMT

Absinthe. Love. Love. IS LOVE.

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 02:21:08 GMT

You scored as absinthe. you are artistic and creative, but a little unstable. you are magical and can have dillusions, and are a little mysterious.

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absinthe

100%

whiskey

92%

bourbon

75%

champagne

71%

vodka

63%

midori

63%

rum

63%

beer

50%

daiquaries

46%

wine

42%

what alcoholic drink are you (pictures)
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Yey.

I love Johann. Johann marry me. NOW.

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 09:55:21 GMT

My hatest thing / animal / pawn / loser / bastard / shit just made A BIG STEP.

He got a daily dev. Thanks to me...I think.
If WE [MADA SENTAI c/o ME] didn't introduce DA to that LOW LEVEL ANIMAL, HE WOULDN'T GET A RECOGNITION FROM THE deviantart administrators.

I want to kill him. again.again.again.again.again.again.again.again.again.

you get the point.

...but I think it was quite predictable since...we knew he was better than us [in art]...only dumber when he thinks...sometimes.

Lord God I need your strength to strike down lightning on HIM. If you will permit.

SCARLET IS DEAD. MARION WILL DIE. and will not resurrect. hahahahahha. >D

LONG LIVE SMEXY BISHIES. MYV IS THE SEX.

LOVE JOHANN.
I LOVE JOHANN.
WE WILL GET MARRIED NOW. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh.

Okay, End of misery. Time to kick and kill some shit.

DA will die.....

This is so fuckin' obvious...
I'm sorry mister winner. I became impulsive, right after i knew you just received some freaking "award".

You might feel too much pride and i need to pull some shit out of you.
That might work.

Gaah. I'm still in love with Johann.
JOHANN IS LOOOOOOVE.

I need some drink. bring me a scotch whiskey.

Battle Royale. Me?

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 06:20:51 GMT

Which Battle Royale character are you? by liz.

You are psychotic. Please, get some emotion transplants or something. You seriously don't give a fuck about anyone or anything. Go buy a puppy and try not to kill it. See if it softens your demeanor. And try talking. Talking helps. Just.. simmer down, now.

Oh no. My inner self is a killing machine?!

Yes. My favorite.

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 03:14:53 GMT

You scored as Red. Your heart is red. You are full of anger and hate, possibly even jealousy. You will never be happy until the person(s) that have made you a fuck up get what they deserve. You want revenge, and you feel you'll never be satisfied until you get it. Sometimes it's easier to just let go, but sometimes you'll never give up on getting what you/they deserve.

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Red

100%

Black

96%

White

82%

Green

82%

Blue

82%

Pink

79%

Yellow

68%

Purple

64%

Orange

32%

~What colour is your heart?~
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Red has always been my favorite color.
Now I know...why i have always loved it.

ANGELA AKI'S THE BEST JPOP ARTIST FOR ME
Not creating too much synthesized music and pop mixes in her songs.
And she has the same name that I have.

OMG. I love her. I've been indulging into ROCK, PUNK ROCK, GOTH, SYNTHESIZED POP, DISCO, TECHNO sooo much that I forgot what great music piano can bring.

Listen to her. She has beautiful talent.

Parts Unknown

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 06:01:57 GMT

I just had a break up with a three to five months relationship.

I had too. It was a TOXIC relationship.
And I thought I could have a good ending...he smashes mockery unto my face.

THAT FUCK.

I wish I could wedge his head off, rip his chest and suck his heart. I would love to do that.

God, I need a backbone.

End of misery. Time to grind his bones.

Really now?

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 08:06:22 GMT

You scored as Goth.

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Goth

75%

Athletic Tomboy

75%

Nerdy Girl

69%

Hippy

38%

Popular Bitch

31%

Slut

19%

Loser

19%

Preppy Girl

What type of girl are you?!!
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I never believed that before.

I'm a bit of the perky goth, then.

I called myself the snowqueen once. That points to the Winter Eve / Archer eve / Evening Eve part of me.

Maybe until now...but I half-abandoned that part of me.

Haha. I wanna laugh. Really.

red birthday.

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 09:02:44 GMT

I had the fun-niest birthday.

It was a joy to realize you have a lot of friends too.
We crashed the mall, went to the supermarket and bought everything we can get our hands on. IT WAS FUN.

Can't forget that we wore all red and white even though some guys wore blue...rebels of the barkada (group of friends).
But that didn't stop us from wrecking havoc.

Anyway, when we arrived home, the girls immediately sat in front of the TV and watched Ouran Koukou. Forgetting that we have to prepare LUNCH.
So, the guys did it. Haha. THEY CAN'T COOK AT ALL.
I have to be there and Dyan, anopther friend had to teach them how to cook RICE (of all the dishes) and RAMEN (haha. Losers)...

But in the end we ate everything on the table and dropped full.
We ate LUNCH at 5pm. That would be dinner too. But it was worthwhile.
hehe. I enjoyed it the whole day.

My 18th birthday wasn't so bad. IT WAS THE BEST.
Well, at least for me.
xxx

I love you chocoryou, weston_city and tsubameongaku...you all went.
I love MYV too. He sang while we ate lunch / supper.

meev me.

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 03:11:59 GMT

I went for internet after classes. And the connection went soooooooooo slow...it got me three hours to finish one download and f+ck my cellphone DIED!

I didn't throw it out from a tantrum...it just DIED. Poof. No phone.
What the heck id happening?! Why is this happening?!

SHEESH. I NEED A BREAK.

ps.
And TO ALL FLIPPOX DYNASTY ON LJ (there are four of us)...
I will meet you at XU benches 9 am NOV 18. Wear black jeans or something similar.
IT HAS TO BE BLACK.
For your top please wear something WHITE or RED.
IT HAS TO BE EITHER OF THE TWO.

And bring some money.
We're going to start World War III in our little way.
I love you flippox.

xxx

Some soda.

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 06:04:56 GMT

I'm turning eighteen by 18.

I am having mixed emotions.
Maybe it's fun because I get to enjoy priveleges that minors can't. But still, I think my mind still thinks like an immature brat.

And that sucks.
Yes it does.

xxx

This is pointless.

of cards and houses.

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 02:46:10 GMT

Yesterday, I met up with my friend. Or foe rather.

I don't really know now.

We met up at a friend's shop. HIS friend owns the shop and he enticed me into going with him into another friend's house.

Damn him. We played PS2. I defeated him once. ONCE only since we only played ONCE. I defeated another guy with experimental characters since we won't stop beating each other until we can use the character's full potential.

URgh. Nerd talk.

IT'S JUST THAT I HAD A GOOD TIME YESTERDAY.

And why the f+ck am I doing this? BECAUSE THIS IS A FREAKING JOURNAL.

I should write. right?

xxx

...I wanna eat somebody.

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 02:26:43 GMT

First day of classes.

No teachers. Just the students...I'm dead bored.
And I wanna eat somebody's hands off. Or head. Whatever I like.
Okaaaay. I may lurk around. I like to lurk.

I hope I find a lot of stuff here. my friends said...They have a lot of stuff here.

What kind of Shounen (boy) anime will you star in? by angel_p
Name
Age
Your shounen genre	Horror
Your shounen rating	G: Everyone can watch it!
The type of shounen you are	Annoying
The kind of girl by your side	Creepy and Depressing
Your eternal rival	Some weirdo who appeared out of nowhere.
Reason why you came to such a situation	Your girlfriend wants you to be the best! @_@

What Kind Of Yaoi Boy Are You? by psychicpsycho
(Nick)Name
Hair	Always in a ponytail
Eyes	Cat eyes!
Unusual Markings	Well, minus the claw marks from your lover...
Seme or uke?	Loving seme
Lover	He's your twin
Happy or angsty?	We're pretty funny. We joke a lot. :D
Fetish	Handcuffs
Number of times you have sex a day	140,827,809,092
Species	We sometimes role play as different species...
Job	My master makes me stay with him at all times, so I guess that's kind of a job...
How many people peek through your window to watch	3,178,091

Your Naruto Life, Love, and Death [love for girls] by of the sand
Name
Age
Village	Hidden Mist Village
Ninja Rank	Special Elite
Best Friend	Ino
Enemy	Zabuza
One You Love	Itachi
One Who Loves You	Gai
The One You Want to Prove Yourself To	Kurenai
One You End Up With	Kabuto
How You Die	You were too involved with revenge and it blinded you from everything else, causing you to die because your reflexes were shot.
One Who Caused Your Death	Jiraiya
Who Was By Your Side During Your Death	Sakura
After Your Died...	Your love vowed never to be with anyone else for as long as he lived.
What You Were Best Known For	Your secluded behavior.

Your Naruto Life, Love, and Death [love for girls] by of the sand
Name
Age
Village	Hidden Leaf Village
Ninja Rank	ANBU
Best Friend	Shikamaru
Enemy	Temari
One You Love	Kankuro
One Who Loves You	Gai
The One You Want to Prove Yourself To	Orochimaru
One You End Up With	Neji
How You Die	Because of selfishness, looking out for yourself only.
One Who Caused Your Death	Kiba
Who Was By Your Side During Your Death	Zabuza
After Your Died...	You became a legend.
What You Were Best Known For	Your outgoing personality.

Your Naruto Life, Love, and Death [love for girls] by of the sand
Name
Age
Village	Hidden Mist Village
Ninja Rank	Genin (lower ninja)
Best Friend	Orochimaru
Enemy	Kabuto
One You Love	Shino
One Who Loves You	Zabuza
The One You Want to Prove Yourself To	Neji
One You End Up With	Kiba
How You Die	With honor, protecting the people you love.
One Who Caused Your Death	Temari
Who Was By Your Side During Your Death	Kakashi
After Your Died...	No one ever forgot about you.
What You Were Best Known For	Your awesome ninjutsu.

Your Final Fantasy Character (For Girls) by Nuggetpower
Name
You Are

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	warm
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	encouraging
Your love is...	one of a kind